Here is a poem I assembled.
In the game called Exquisite Corpse, people collaborate on a creative work without being able to see the whole. In creative writing classes, the process looks like someone writing a single line and then passing the paper to the next person, who follows it up with their own continuation. Person two then folds or blocks the top of the paper so that person three can only see line two and respond to that. By the end of going around a circle of nervous writers you get quite the poem-story. Here, I have played this game with myself, sourcing lines from archived posts, in order, since the winter.
What do you think? A decent artist’s statement for Dishwasher Cafe?
I was so charmed I could hardly keep my pants on.
You can feel the enormity of this potential, of potential itself—
(“I SURRENDER: a #feralprofessor reading of Plath’s “The Night Dances”)
In fact, […] the greater the risk of failure, […] the more fun I’m having.
Lest I lead you to believe this is all an elaborately douchey humble-brag,
Rat club usually meets under the dining room table,
As if some sense of the world […] is already inside
propelled by the excruciating vulnerability of hope.
(“I’M NOT SLEEPING WITH MADELINE MILLER BUT I MIGHT AS WELL BE”)
Once, when I was in bed for nine months,
I found out that [my] Christmas tree [had] a boner.
That power, that poise, that extraordinary potential of motion—
the adrenally fueled heartbeats from this fiasco surely count towards some kind of exercise.
Always tell someone when they look tasty.
I can’t overstate the importance of adult connection, specifically
In a way-too-tight fleece suit.
Eventually everyone partially air-dries while wailing.
No, it’s not a thing. It’s an unfolding, a phenomenon.
I’ll send a lantern and some furs.
You gotta move in, get inside that dumpster fire of death and dying.
It all falls under the genus WTF, like
the benefits of painting yourself pastel pink with acrylics from knees to navel.
The whole operation has been hacked to pieces and the pieces are in charge
and in turn, this gifted completeness makes the speaker’s telling glow.
If this isn't an accurate compendium of either your life, or anyone's life, then someone's doing something wrong. I know you as much as your Cafe musings allow me to know you, but you've compiled something evocative that results in dark chuckling and appreciative whimsy.
Either that, or you're a real weirdo, and that's okay too.
On dissecting this exquisite corpse with a new pacemaker, I felt "the enormity of this potential, of potential itself,” albeit with "the greater the risk of failure,” yet always "propelled by the excruciating vulnerability of hope.” Yet especially now that I am feeling "the adrenally fueled heartbeats from this fiasco [that] surely count towards some kind of exercise,” feeling "that power, that poise, that extraordinary potential of motion—“ OH that POTENTIAL! Yet, in the meantime "the importance of adult connection, specifically” strikes home, recognizing “eventually everyone partially air-dries while wailing” and waiting for "that dumpster fire of death and dying.” Bypassing "the benefits of painting yourself pastel pink with acrylics from knees to navel,” "this gifted completeness [of realized "potential of motion”] makes the speaker’s telling glow.” Hmmm...